Profile for Philospher

Hi Friends,

Life is very short, time passes so fast, those who've spent decades here know it very well, so enjoy it with fun and responsibility. Don't do anything for which you have to repent entire life. Please Respect everyone, this is what I have learnt in my life.

I am very much indebted and thankful to a girl whom I met online for introducing me to a lot of things, including this site. She was literally a guide to me in this cyber world. She taught me internet lingo, She was also my English teacher, making me aware of a number of British slangs and proverbs and also a moral support on many occasions, especially lecturing me how to behave with parents. I was so fond of her company that I eagerly waited to meet her every evening without delay, It was quite a beautiful experience for me. In her language, her name means "Beautiful" and mine was "Fragrance"... so I called it "Beautiful Fragrance" together.

When we first met in a chat room, I thought she (Gypsy-girl) was an elderly lady fighting with a bunch of racist boys and took my side (the room raiders). It was a very brief meeting and then we parted. Then she disappeared from the internet for several days without any trace, but I kept the hope to see her again and waited for her. Finally, I saw her online and then there began our friendship. I was fond of her even after so much of differences in our culture, customs and language, religion. For example, She liked corn beef and fish chips, but I am Vegan. She had no interest in maths, but I was good at maths. She was polite, kind-hearted, empathatic and very emotional being and I was rough, frolicsome and careless person. Because she had a lot of general knowlege about things, she was my Guru in many ways. She was a student of social studies, and I was a Computer graduate. We were barely 20 and immature, but sometimes she used to have hard days due to hormonal change and used to get mad at me for no apparent reason. "Silly me", I couldn't understand those feelings. One thing I noticed that she was accident prone. As for as I know she had fractured limbs multiple times in her life. Once, perhaps in Dec, 2006 she had an accident and was recuperating... I sent her alot of e-greetings to cheer her up, she replied with immense happiness. I heard her saying that her life was full of pain and sadness, but I was too young and innocent to understand anything.
Anyways, her affection towards me began to subside after months and she began to look for new chat friends.
Meanwhile, I too got a job and couldn't give her much time due to the work, this was the time when there was no access to the internet at the workplace and having a broadband connection at a rented house was a luxury. Though, nothing could stop me from talking to her. We usually used to talk over the cellphone every week and were in touch through SMS. According to her, she belonged to a working-class family and couldn't afford to make international calls, so I used to call her. Here, I was working hard for only one objective, and that was to get a chance to meet her in real.
As all the unsuccessful stories end in disaster, this one also had a similar fate after a revelation made by an unknown guy on my email, who claimed himself to be her online BF.
I inquired, and we fought soon afterwards, I admit that I got so mad at her while in this fragile virtual world, you own nothing. She disappeared without saying anything. My heart was broken now. I decided not to meet her again. She kept changing her nicknames and emails but I guess she couldn't contrite and couldn't find solace. Here, my passion for her was stronger than any fight we had. Destiny regularly crossed our paths, and every time we met, talked and spent some time together but could not rejuvenate our affection, cause she had lost the spark and I had lost faith in her. I couldn't ever trust her again; frankly, she never cared to rebuild that trust. It seems she also lost interest in our friendship.
But I kept missing her. I had yet to learn so much from her and this betrayal was another teaching from her. However, I felt betrayed for wrong reason, a teacher is teacher.. he/she is not your lover. I never realized, when She had become an inseparable part of me, I should not let myself be humiliated like this. Anyways, I still remember her birthday and never miss wishing her on her dead nicknames/e-mails. Even today, I feel that I care for her, but I don't love her, only cherish the moments we spent together. We played many games together, we tried to teach each other BG and Chess, played Dracula and the Queen, hide and seek, and storytelling. Share many childhood incidents, learned about many new stories and customs. Watched TV programs like Big Brother, The Corries together, and even spent entire days together.
I wish to see her again Healthy and Happy, pray to the almighty for her and her family's well-being and thank her for those short but permanent precious moments she shared with me!!